humpty dumpty

Sometimes life gets fucking hard.
I see everyone’s scornful eyes
Judging
I feel often like a victim of circumstance,
Of inability
Of sheer bad luck
Sometimes so many things go against my nature
Sometimes all you get is a cold shoulder
I feel all alone
Death tempts me once again.
How sweet would a life of no life be
How is heaven or even hell like?
Is eternal happiness or eternal guilt plausible?
If so are they feelings better than the sufferings of the world
That offered me shit
And piss to breathe on
Life is hard as it is abstractly silent
So abnormally normal.

No one sees the life the way I do
I fret and people never understand
I see God’s blinding protection over them
Making me stupid and odd
What justice is this?
No one holds my dilemma.
I’m inhuman
My consciousness drives me insane.
My consciousness drives me insane.
My consciousness drives me insane.
I am about to fall apart into many little pieces
That no one can piece together.