Infatuation

Infatuation

We do the dance of the glance
You play with me
Or is it just me?

You are so sweet
But are you what you are
Or are you shit?

I watch myself
I freeze over
My mind races
When I’m near you.
Do you?

You are not a normal person
Cant talk to you properly.
Cant even begin.

Do you know I plan my life around you?
My every tendon and sinew
I did it for people like you.

You saw me that day
i saw you look
Deeper than the usual look

Come into my presence please
Talk to my friends again
So that I can look at you from the corner of my eyes

I need you for real
But do you even know me
I’d go crazy over a chance
to watch you live breathe and do your thing.

I drive myself mad
All these waiting for you
Made me perverse
Because of all the filler thoughts
All the filler desires

I remembered you looking
I swear you looked
What does that mean?
Or does it even mean anything
Am I ranting about an empty void of existence?
or am i just thinking too much?

I know you live far away
Don’t disappear from here
Or maybe you should
To save me from myself
For I’m a creep
And I don’t belong here.